A Zen Grimms Fairy tale
A Zen Grimms Fairy Tale
As I read my last post I thought, is that really it? Am I really a pro at this? We all put a facade on at times just to get through a difficult time, I am no different. One I would guess, at times needs that decorative front to cover any vulnerability. Cancer is a wilderness where you are always trying to find your way out. In any wilderness expedition, I have always been taught to have and know how to use a map and compass, be able to navigate out and never panic. As a writer I struggle to make sure that I portray all sides of this journey I’m on, because in a way I’m also representing my comrades. It’s so easy to portray yourself as strong and healthy where the outside views you as “cured,” or weak and lost in the disease where the outside views you as “hopeless.” There is an in between that is straddled, a balancing act of duality.
We arrived in Boston, back where we spent the last 2 months immersed in this duality. Even our faithful dog Lena Bean had to suck it up one more time, putting on her uniform as a “therapy dog“ and spending most of the days sleeping on a couch, patiently waiting out the hours to go home. Monday was basically a non event, just another day, another mile. Lab tests at 7 a.m. and meeting with Dr. Van Allen. All tests came out fine and my PSA is where we want it to be.
“Am I out of the woods?“ I asked my point man. “You’re doing fine.” I then asked about the “C“ word which in our vernacular means CURE. “I don’t use that word,” my Doc replied. I knew why, because with cancer that word is intangible or so far , seemingly out of reach. Off I went for my injection of Lupron and script of Casodex.
So where does this trail of words lead? It leads me to the ADK HIKE FOR HOPE. A place for me to move forward in this long journey, to give back something I believe in my heart that will benefit others in the wilderness called cancer, and yes give them hope.